I used to come here years ago but couldn't remember my old name/password. My DIL had cut me out of new GD's life and this place was like intensive care for me. You all helped me to recovery and develop new strengths and I'm grateful for that.
Things are better since I apologized and adopted the "I wont do/say anything that would come close to making you want to kick me out of GKs life again" approach and have gotten on with my life. It's a tricky path - to bend enough to keep our family is intact and also make sure my own integrity is intact at the same time.
I do run into situations that leave me speechless and will be asking for suggestions for words that would fill the void. Sometimes when we visit, I find myself just looking at DIL and thinking, "Huh?" - she is unlike any other person I've had in my life.
Anyway, glad to be back