My DIL refuses to let our grandchildren come over and visit because she and I don't get along and my only child (son) is caught in the middle of this. She doesn't want anything to do with his family. Her mother is deceased and she doesn't have anything to do with her father, so therefore we are the only grandparents to the children. Doesn't she realize that she is only hurting the children by withholding them from us? Every child should have a relationship with their grandparents. I cherished my grandparents, and still miss having them around today. How can I make her understand this? They never come spend the day with us on holidays, they spend it with her aunt and cousins instead. I really don't know why she doesn't like me, I have tried to talk to her and ask her if I have done anything to offend her and she will say no. When they do come over she just sits and plays on her phone and doesn't talk to us, if we go over there she does the same thing or gets up and goes into the bedroom. If our son comes over to visit us, she will constantly text or call him complaining about something or another to the point that he doesn't stay long. I am at my wits end with her, I am a very outgoing person and get along well with everyone, I just don't understand it. I have got to the point that I don't hold back anymore, I tell her what I think because I bitten my tongue way to long to try and keep the peace for my son and grandchildrens sake. How do I just back off and not see my son or grandchildren any more? Any advice would be greatly appreciated...
You have found the right place to talk. I dont have grandchildren as yet but I have the same situation with my future daughter-in-law who does not like me.
I am glad I found this site because talking about it helps and it has also prepared me for how worse it can get when my son and she marry.
Nevertheless I am sure there are a number of Wise women who will be able to help you.
Blessings
I would say nothing and try not to let things my dil said or did bother me. I wanted to see my grandchild and that meant more to me. But...that is me.
Your son must know how you feel...you need to go to him sometimes when you have a problem with your dil. Let him handle it...if he can.
One thing my son did when she would call him non-stop while he was here was NEVER answer those calls.
Before he would leave with my grandson to visit me he would tell her what time he would be home.
She wanted control of him constantly...one of the reasons they are no longer together.
You could be looking at one of a number of things. She could be nuts....in which case without her getting counseling your just out of luck. Or, she could feel threatened by you, in which case, "telling her like it is" isn't going to improve the situation. Being kind and complimenting her so she develops the confidence in that area may help the situation. Or she may be hurt by something. It may not have even registered to you, but something may have offended her deeply. Or maybe only slightly, but when she discussed it with your son he argued for you instead of agreeing to talk about it or do something about it, making her resent both of you (and the the anger from that gets directed to you). Or being around you reminds her that her parents aren't around, which depresses her. Not your fault, but it could still create this situation.
Whatever it is, your DIL doesn't feel comfortable leaving her kids with you. And as much as it hurts, it's her choice as a mom who she takes the kids to see. Your son does visit you, which is good, but I know you'd like to see them both and have a relationship that's more "familial".
I think you already know what I'm going to say, but it isn't what you want to hear. There's no magic pill to fix things and make your DIL do what you want. Just like losing weight, quick fixes and fads rarely work. What does is consistent steady work. The first part would be getting to talk to your DIL, but you've mentioned she won't. I'd refrain from telling her off. As my mom used to say, no matter what someone else does, you're better than that. Try to see if your son can set up a meeting and express how much you regret that you and she aren't closer . Build your relationship with her and the relationship with the GKs will come. And even if there weren't GKs in the mix. a good relationship with her makes for a happier family in general.
When my step-daughter had her child, she would not even bring her to our house because it wasn't clean enough. Basically, I wasn't OCD like her and her mother. Really, it was just an excuse. She had loyalty issues with her Mom. It is a long story and goes back to when she was 13 and her mom left DH and her here in the Midwest so she could move back to the West Coast to be with her lover. Since her Mom and other Blood Grandmas couldn't be here, then I couldn't be there either even though I just lived a couple of blocks down the road. This wasn't the only thing SD went insane about regarding my GD. It was like she wen temporarily insane and all the issues she ever had, and she had a lot, dictated her behavior.
It was tough not to take it all personally, and it hurt like hell. When GD was three month old, they had tons and tons of pictures of her with people who had seen her only once or twice, some of who have never seen her since, and none with DH. After I pointed this out they made sure to get some. It was when she was nine months old that SD realized she had none of me and GD and it was only after GD was a year old that she took some with my DD.
We were patient. We did anything they asked of us, their requests were always reasonable, we took every opportunity we could get to see GD, we did not show our hurt or our resentment and we not only were accepting, but also supportive of their parenting choices even if we did not agree. Mostly, we kept our mouths shut and let them find their own way.
When she finally came around, it was like the previous months had not happened. They were at our house at least once a week for dinner, when SD was ready to be away from GD, she let us babysit and that usually happened at least once a week, and if we weren't available, they called DD. We all were able to develop a very close relationship with GD.
I guess my point is that you really cannot change this situation except through patience. She has made it pretty clear that she doesn't want a relationship with you, so don't push one. Be unfailingly polite and kind to her, but don't push her to allow you the access that you feel you deserve. The painful truth is that we grandparents don't have any rights except those given to us by the parents. We should be thankful for what we can get and make the best of what time we have with our grandchildren. Otherwise, we only make ourselves miserable and poison the time we do get with our grandchildren.
I can't add anything here. She is how she is and if there is change, she will have to see the need for it and take it on. You're stuck with the fall-out for now. And all you can protect is your own dignity, as far as I know.
I agree with all the Wise Women here. I have nothing to add except sorrow that these problems are so wide-spread (epidemic?) and all I can do is offer you my empathy and support.
Kathleen
Byrdg615 You just stay and vent here.
Sometimes we answer our own questions by just talking to others
I am so glad I found this site.It has helped me to prepare myself for relationship problems that can arise.
Going over it in our own minds without expressing it is not good.
Blessings
Hang in there byrdg605. I have a similar situation, only its with my daughter. I found this site about two weeks ago and was hesitant to tell my feelings to strangers. But after coming back here often and reading about others, I see its not just me.
Im so sorry for the pain you are going through. I know first hand that it is very painful, and I cant imagine what our children tell their children about why we are not around!!! It breaks my heart everyday to think about it.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you and all of us who have been denied by our kids (or inlaw kids). Mostly I pray for the grandkids who are left wondering why grandma or grandpa dont come to see them anymore.
byrdg605 ,
I knew you would find a lot of support here!
I love what justus had to say. That's pretty much what we are attempting to do and I hope we can do as well with our upcoming gc as they have done......especially keeping my mouth shut when there's things I don't agree with. ;)
Wishing you all the best.
Hugs, Hope
I have to imagine invisible masking tape over my mother sometimes! I really do! Or I get off by myself and put both hands over my mouth and try to speak. It's an art form...silence. Sending love...
Thanks everyone,
I am learning to give them their space, but it is really hard to have my son call and ask to borrow the truck, lawnmower, or something and when they come to get whatever he has borrowed, we have to go out to the vehicle to even see our grandchildren. She won't come in our house. I work with my son and I get to see him at least once a week. He said that he wasn't going to let her keep the kids from us but it is happening and he hasn't been able to convince her otherwise. I think she just doesn't want our son to have anything to do with us. She gets upset when I go by work and see him. I have told my husband, that we shouldn't go over to their house unless we are invited. I spoke to her the other night when I went out to the vehicle to see the kids, and she answered me. She tells my son that we don't love our granddaughter as much as we do our grandson. She also tells my son that he doesn't love her as much either. I telling you I think she needs professional help. When our grandson was born she wouldn't let us keep him until he was probably 9 months old and then she didn't want us to take him to town, we had to bring him straight home from their house and not leave the house with him. When our granddaughter was born she would not let us take any photos of her at the hospital. I haven't even asked about keep our granddaughter, because I know how she was about concerning our grandson. There are other children involved as well, she has a 10 yr. old son from another guy and she is raising her neice and nephew. My son told me that we need to treat them all the same but it is really hard because they did not grow up around us, I have opened my home to them and they have come over and spent the night with us, but it is just not the same as when our grandson comes over. I love them all, I just can't keep them all at one time. She says that they need there space, but her family members are always over at their house or moving in with them. I just wish my son could open his eyes and see what is going on around him. We have always been ther for him and it just seems like he isn't there for us now and it really hurts.
Hi Byrdg605. I want to tell you about my situation. First let me say I am a DIL who has "issues" with the MIL. I am trying to get some insight into how to handle things, from other MILs perspectives and any other DILs who are here as well. That being said I want to tell you more about myself...
My mom was widowed when my sister & I were almost 2 & 4 yrs old. She remarried when we were almost 5 & 7. My real father's parents, siblings came to her 2nd wedding. My "step"Dad and his family have never treated us differently. We received all the same gifts, time etc all while my bio dads family continued to be in our lives. My GPs took us out for our birthday - we got to pick a toy or clothing and go to lunch. For each summer my Gma would take my sister & I alone for a wk, just like all the other grandkids. They loved us and accepted us. To this day of the children in my family ( a his, her & theirs situation) my sister & I (the non-bios) are the ones who keep in contact with them - they thank me every time we talk. I cannot imagine making a family tree without including these people in it as they helped shape my life. She is the one who told me of the angels wings when making a bed & how to set a table. Grandpa had his love of birds and flowers – I even have "my rosebush" planted in the garden (a plant each time a child was born).
I can completely relate to the fact that since these other children were not raised within your family that the connection doesn't run as deep for you but your son must have love in his heart for them. What giving people your son & wife must be to open their hearts and home.
I don't think it is fair of your DIL to not allow you to see her children but I cannot imagine how she must feel when you pick only some of them. They are your son's children too – all of them. He is raising them. He is instilling his beliefs, helping to shape their lives. Think of all you could offer them (since you obviously raised a loving son). 3 of these kids come from not ideal situations you could be another "normal" adult in their lives. That doesn't mean they all have to come at once or you have to do the same things that you do with a young boy -but they could make their own traditions with you and be trusted friends - after all they do live with your son's bio children and will be influenceing them as well.
I hope I have not offended, just wanted to give a different perspective. As you can tell I am DEFINITELY still working on the keeping my mouth shut :)
Hi stilltrying2010,
Thank you for your reply, and no you haven't offended me. I would like to clear some things up though. I have been there for these other children too. I just took all 4 of them to the beach back in May of this year. I know that the children have had a difficult time adjusting but they are doing good. I problem with my dil is, she tells my son that we need to treat the children the same but she doesn't follow her own advice. She is very mean and hateful to the nephew. She shows particallity to her children as well as the neice. I would take the nephew and raise him if they would let me, Iwe love him that much. He reminds me of my son when he was a little boy. He is very hyper and gets into everything but so is our grandson. Before she and my son had any children, she complained to my son at Christmas the first year that they got them because she said that we bought more gifts for them than we did for her oldest son. Mind you that her oldest son had grandparents from two previous relationships that she was in buying for him also, we did go a little over board with the gifts but we wanted them to feel welcomed. We didn't spend anymore money on them than we did on her son. We just bought him video games that cost alot more that the gifts that we bought them. So now we just try to get clothes for all of them. I bought them all a swing set that I found at a yard sale and she told my son that she didn't need my hand outs. This past Easter I bought the little gc a basket and all three of the older gc a solid chocolate bunny, and she had something to say about that. I am darn if I do and darn if I don't. There is just no satisfying her. Let me assure you that I have been there for all of these children and am close to them all. I love all of thes kids.
I sat on the sofa and worried over what I had written & actually logged on to delete it - I am sorry B... I sounded like some person who tell me in my own situation (issues with MIL) to just ignore it or to think of her needs (when clearly mine are no consideration to her).
I applaud all that you have done for your son's extended family & hope that you find the strength to deal with the situation - it seems as though you have 2 things going for you - your son recognizes your love (but doesnt yet act) and you are still trying.
That's ok stilltrying, we all are having some sort of problem or we wouldn't be on this website. I am just glad that I can come on here and vent. I really am trying to keep my mouth shut, but it is hard sometimes. I guess I just need to stop expecting certain things and take what is given to me. I just feel very used sometimes. I am learning to cope with it though. I am not getting very much in return right now, but there is always tomorrow. Thanks
Dear byrdg"
My heart is with you. I know how it feels not to see a grandchild. Your son seems not to be there for you but I assure you he loves you but is trapped in the middle. Maybe son feels that intefering will make things worse for you. He knows your dil more than you do and I suppose they have had some arguments on this subject. Just hold in there. You say that you do not please her whatever you do.... When dils want you out of their lives it is very convenient to be finding fault. I hope she will soon realize what she and your grandchildren are missing not having you around. Even if you dont believe it....they sometimescome to their senses and understands it sooner or later......and when this happens, it is awesome. (my experience).
I will keep you and other hurting mils of this site in my prayers.
but it is really hard to have my son call and ask to borrow the truck, lawnmower, or something and when they come to get whatever he has borrowed, we have to go out to the vehicle to even see our grandchildren
I HEAR YOU! A situation similar happened today, once again. Hence I found this forum.
Perhaps we need to remind ourselves, it's their issue. Still hurts tho doesn't it?!
You sound like a loving caring aprent. Better times to you!
Yes, it is so hard! My heart goes out to you. I remember delivering a car of mine to my son after he decided to buy it. We went in two cars, of course, and when we got there we stood out in front of their apartment (after driving 60 miles) and talked for a bit and he couldn't ask us to come up for a minute. I've been treated better by total strangers.
Dear byrd, I sure hope things get better for you and your family! My thoughts and prayers are with you . I think there is few things lower than someone using a child as a weapon in any battle, If it's with IL's or and X. Children love them all and have a different view on things than the person who is angry. And the angry person is hurting the child more than any one else. I really hope it gets better for you and your Grandchildren.
Luise, the very same thing happened with my son. We went to dinner at his home and we were 15 minutes early. He suggested we go down the street to a cafe and have coffee until the appointed time. Then one day we stopped (with advance notice OF COURSE) at their home. It was a very hot day and we asked for a drink of water and DIL and he said that their kitchen was too messy and we could not come in. So we dropped the stuff and left, never seeing the inside of the house we helped them buy. I think if a panting dog stopped by their door they would have given the dog a drink, or their thirsty cats.
Kathleen
Yeah, Kathleen, what's that all about? DS & DIL don't hesitate to call and come over anytime, but we've never been invited to their home and are rarely invited in (DS will if DIL isn't home) if we find ourselves doing a drop-off or whatever for them (I've told this story a million times here, sorry for doing so yet again.) I see it as a control issue, and a passive-aggressive way of showing us DIL's disdain. They actually did feed and water a stray dog, LOL. I guess that shows us!
It's time for them to move again. Please please please encourage me to stay strong and just say "no!" Although it'd be the only time I'd get to see their new place...no! No!
Byrdg605 - It sounds like your intentions are good, but I agree that "telling her off" is making the situation far worse. At least it would if I were your DIL. There's certainly some kind of underlying issue she has with you, maybe you meant it, maybe you didn't. Maybe you didn't even know you did it, but there has to be something. Now that you're "not holding back" she certainly has cause to have issue with you. And I adopted a rule long before my own daughter was born..."If you can't be civil to mommy, you can't have access to her children." Accept that. As long as you have open, verbal issue with her, she has no reason to even want to share her children with you. Pushing and pushing and pushing will only get you pushed OUT, so be careful what you say to DIL.
QuoteI just wish my son could open his eyes and see what is going on around him.
Be careful with this one dear. Its very easy to want your son to "opne his eyes" to see things the way YOU do, but it sounds like his eyes are wide open. He's well aware of what's going on....regarding the FACTS anyway. Emotions are so one-sided. Don't expect him to understand how this is hurting YOU, he never will.
If you want to correct the situation, I think first you will need to learn how to hold your tongue. I'm not telling you to take a tongue-lashing from DIL or DS, but learn to pick your battles wisely. Snarky comments and accusations are designed only to harm, they serve no positive purpose.
Stilltrying2010 brings up a very valid point. Any reasonable mother would want all of her children to be treated the same, no matter what their bloodlines are. Whether or not she treats them the same is only seen through a very limited observation, obviously, since you don't see them often. You can't take what you evaluate once or twice and form an everyday assumption.
So here's a thought: for whatever reason, she doesn't want you alone with them. What if you went to visit THEM, at their home, under her supervision? If she has the chance to evaluate you a few times, maybe she would change her mind? It's possible I guess. Sad that you would need to do that to show her, but it may be a test you have to pass with her.
I think the biggest struggle betwen MILs and DILs is learning how to love the same man in different ways, accepting different roles in his life, and not overstepping the boundaries of the others' roles. I've seen so many MILs write on here and I've gathered that its just as hard for the MIL to accept that her son loves another woman just as much as he does his mother, as it is for the DIL to accept that the MIL should have a steady SUPPORTIVE (not controlling) role in his life as well. I also think we're all "battier" than what we're willing to share about ourselves with complete strangers.
I don't know, sometimes I'm full of really useless ideas and hot air....but I do hope you find a peaceful resolution. It is sad to watch a grandmother who is deserving of that role be denied it, while so many grandmothers really aren't deserving of that role, but think it's their "right" because their child reproduced.
Pen, Say NO. NO. NO NO NO!!!!!!!
Kathleen
Quote from: Pen on August 09, 2010, 10:36:47 AM
Yeah, Kathleen, what's that all about? DS & DIL don't hesitate to call and come over anytime, but we've never been invited to their home and are rarely invited in (DS will if DIL isn't home) if we find ourselves doing a drop-off or whatever for them (I've told this story a million times here, sorry for doing so yet again.) I see it as a control issue, and a passive-aggressive way of showing us DIL's disdain. They actually did feed and water a stray dog, LOL. I guess that shows us!
It's time for them to move again. Please please please encourage me to stay strong and just say "no!" Although it'd be the only time I'd get to see their new place...no! No!
You know, it may not be about you at all.
My brother and his wife are like this and it has nothing to do with anyone. They are bad housekeepers, the both of them. I know my brother is very messy and SIL with 2 kids under the age of 5, I'm sure it's very hard for her. And the only reason why I know is b/c I had to go in their house one day for an emergency. It wasn't horrible, but it was bad enough and I know my brother would never want our mom to see their house like that. They were both embarassed that I was there. I used to wonder why they never invited us over but now I know. It's nothing to do with us, they just don't like to clean and they are embarassed about it at the same time. I guess it could be worse, they don't like to clean and still want us to come over lol.
Hi, Pam1. I certainly could understand being left standing on the stoop if DIL & DS were messy, but they're not. She's fastidious about her home and her person. Her FOO is allowed in - maybe she's afraid we'll infect her home with fleas? :)
And thank you, Kathleen - I'm practicing now. No. No. No.
It's very encouraging, Pen, to see that you can spell it! I couldn't do even that for the first half of my life! ;D
Pen......I wish you a happy ......No...no....no. You will sure feel proud of yourself.
Ïf you always do what you've always done, you will always get what you've always got".
Let us know the outcome ok?
If we dont value ourselves, no one else will lol
Quote from: RedRose on June 27, 2010, 01:09:58 PM
I would say nothing and try not to let things my dil said or did bother me. I wanted to see my grandchild and that meant more to me. But...that is me.
Your son must know how you feel...you need to go to him sometimes when you have a problem with your dil. Let him handle it...if he can.
One thing my son did when she would call him non-stop while he was here was NEVER answer those calls.
Before he would leave with my grandson to visit me he would tell her what time he would be home.
She wanted control of him constantly...one of the reasons they are no longer together.
I've got to go along with what Red Rose has said here....cautioning, when you discuss this with your son, please don't make it sound like your blaming her...otherwise, he will immediately take offense and be defensive...never make it sound like your talking about her, but discussing the situation with your son, as to what you can do to take ownership and fix this.
Tell him, you don't understand why she is angry with you, and what you did to start all this...explain to him and then ask him, "Was I wrong?" and if he says yes, don't take it personal, but as a suggestion on how to fix it....and listen to his words...because he knows her better then anyone...and ask him what he thinks you could do to make your relationship better. It is a very slow process, however, don't allow it to control you, make you feel insecure, or inept...in any way....your DIL sounds very immature...and time does change things, I promise...
RedRose also said what my cousin's wife said...that she wasn't going to allow her DIL's actions towards her, someday, define her realationship with her grand children, so she just left things roll off her back, and it was hard, however, years, later, they are good together, but they will never be close, like she is with the other one, it's nothing against her or personal....just the way her DIL is...very to herself, and personal...sometimes, she's very talkative, and other times, she is very withdrawn socially...I've witnessed this....so, it might not all be you...she just may not be socialable and views a close family as a threat....to her closeness with her huband...it's just the way she thinks and believes...maybe?
Quote from: Pen on August 09, 2010, 10:36:47 AM
Yeah, Kathleen, what's that all about? DS & DIL don't hesitate to call and come over anytime, but we've never been invited to their home and are rarely invited in (DS will if DIL isn't home) if we find ourselves doing a drop-off or whatever for them (I've told this story a million times here, sorry for doing so yet again.) I see it as a control issue, and a passive-aggressive way of showing us DIL's disdain. They actually did feed and water a stray dog, LOL. I guess that shows us!
It's time for them to move again. Please please please encourage me to stay strong and just say "no!" Although it'd be the only time I'd get to see their new place...no! No!
Daer Pen,
You are the nicest person, with so much to give...
I'm saying, say NO!
Hugs
Creme
Oh Creme, thanks so much. I do feel stronger!
Quote from: Pen on August 10, 2010, 08:27:44 AM
Oh Creme, thanks so much. I do feel stronger!
I think we gain strength from each other...this forum is a God sent...it really is...wishing you the best always...
Pen, a friend of mine once gave me this gift of language:
"NO is a sentence!"
Reinforcing NO,
Kathleen
I love that! :D
Pen - stay strong.....just say no.
I just love reading your posts!
Hugs, Hope
I think we all have to look that word up in the dictionary...and learn to spell and pronounce it. Sending love, Pen.
;) ;) ;) ;D ;D
My Grandsons Mother was never married to my Son and they have shared custody. I used to be able to get visits for couple of hours and I am certainly lucky to see them all. Because , I have struggled with family for recognition and for empathy, in which they are not able to provide or understand, my Son refuses to let me see my Grandson as he states "he only has two days", so he spends his time with my son and maybe my sons adoptive parents. As you see, the pain is very unbearable, as I have a neurological disorder and I have struggled with my emotions and my grief for years. The other day, my Son called to mock me, as I have called him many times and he refuses to call me back, so I am just ignored. I did leave a message for him to call his brother and explain that he has a niece who has been born. My Son goes further to discuss on how he has changed his birth certificate to where my name is no longer on it, and continued to mock me, while laughing on the phone about how I have burned the bridges with my Grandsons Mother. My second Son and his wife have just had their baby and my Grand daughter has been alive now 3 days and I have not been able to see her either, nor was I able to go to the hospital as I can not drive because I have seizures. My sister will not take me, my son says I have a created a problem for him, since he is just so busy and has a lot of things to do. I had a lot of stuff to do when I was raising my children and I my heart is so broken beyond repair. I feel I just need to resign myself and pretend I have no family at all. Just thinking about only seeing my family only once a year is just not enough. I am fully aware that I do not matter to my family and that It is beyond repair. My family know that I have had seizures for years and that I can not drive to see them, but it is a trouble for them to see me.
There are no buses here yet where I live and I have no way to see them.
I know I have made some horrible mistakes in my life, but I really truly feel I do not deserve to be exiled and emotionally punished for my bad behavior for the rest of my life. It is not like my Mother or My Father never made any mistakes, because they did, however I did try to forgive them, and tried to make repairs. My family and their loved ones they have chosen do not know the meaning of humility, forgiveness and understanding. They do understand revenge, so that is why I am left with much despair and bitterness watching pictures of my grandchildren on a box on this computer, yet never able to kiss them, hold them or play games with them.
:(
Welcome, D. Most of us here are looking at the options others have regarding forgiveness. None of us were perfect parents and some of us screwed up big time. It doesn't seem to matter which category we fall into...the choice is for our adult children to make regarding how we are regarded and treated. Again, most of us here have spent countless hours (years, decades) trying to figure it out and have pretty much decided that doesn't work. We have felt unfairly accused and unjustly judged which has given us grounds for self-pity. We simply can't afford it. In the end...we either elect to save ourselves...to love ourselves and go on or we stay in all of the above. We started out without kids and complete and we can find wholeness again and peace. It doesn't come quickly and it doesn't come and stay for a long time. It's a rocky road where we give each other support and understanding. Blessings, Luise
Thank you Louise it brings much comfort to know someone has heard my pleas. :'(
Our site is abut no longer being alone...and walking the walk with others who understand. It's truly wonderful.
:) QUote from Miss Priss (sorry don't know how to use the proper quoting format, so cut and paste here):
" I think the biggest struggle betwen MILs and DILs is learning how to love the same man in different ways, accepting different roles in his life, and not overstepping the boundaries of the others' roles. I've seen so many MILs write on here and I've gathered that its just as hard for the MIL to accept that her son loves another woman just as much as he does his mother, as it is for the DIL to accept that the MIL should have a steady SUPPORTIVE (not controlling) role in his life as well. I also think we're all "battier" than what we're willing to share about ourselves with complete strangers."
This is the hardest thing to do as a mother of sons and nobody prepares you for this. I have learned that it takes time, a lot of patience and continuous awareness to not let the 'gut feeling' get the better of me. I try and approach everything I do in my life with dignity and grace, but when it comes to dealing with the feeling of not being the 'next of kin' to my son any more it becomes difficult. This is in my view where a lot or problems arise because these things cannot be expressed, they are latent. I do not think I am an possessive or jealous person but deep down inside there is something that gnaws at me and only a lot of patience and the passing of time will heal this. I try to compensate by being very friendly and supportive to DIL but that may come over as not being genuine. So far I can see the grandchildren but I always feel that I am being assessed for my performance.
A keen sense of humour is the best thing that has been given to us humans considering the condition we find ourselves in. Laughing in the face of adversity - now that's a gift.
None but ourselves can free our minds - indeed! ;D
You mention patience and that is a really big part of it for me. I have never thought about the "next of kin" thing in that way and it is VERY helpful. I will never forget it! We created these "adult men" and they were "next of skin!" We brought them into this world and nursed them. We protected, nurtured and taught them. Then they became somebody's husband and the head of a separate household...and we found ourselves on the outside, peering in.
Sending love...