I did not actually make a decisive decision about it, but, slowly, I came into the position and emotional acceptance that I was better off taking the off ramp and that it was ok. I've lasted the last couple of months this way. I"m happy now. I feel as if life is going to move forward in a fantastic way.... and I really don't think that I'm fooling myself into this fantasy. I think I really feel this way. For the first time in two months, I had a really angry thought about how my daughter and her husband and family have treated me. I have a habit of writing my feelings and pressing send, but now I write my feelings and save them in my google drive. I have a great emotional gripe session and then instead of pressing send, I cut and paste my thoughts onto my google document. I can, of course, send it some day. But, for now, I'm saving my thoughts.
I think I"m a peace now, but can't be sure. I wish you all the best. I will return to check on you all once in a while. Of course, I'm still sad about the outcome, but am at peace now. I'm changing my lifestyle and embarking on learning new and different things. Maybe this is better for me. Good luck to you all. Best wishes.