Bridget, I thought your post was so very sweet and poignant, and wow to tell the truth refreshing! I envy you and have a new post as a little role model! Thank you. You are showing yourself as honest and unpretentious. We all feel jealous, if we tell the truth about it. I think you're doing a really good job, and I don't think there's any red flags flying above your head. I love being a grandmother, and have two spectacular grandsons that I'm close to, but I keep telling myself over and over - watch it Ruth. Don't start the cycle over with g/c as you did with dd and ds, they g/c can't become my validation of worth as a human being, or my social status, or my fairy tale world where all is good and happy.
I have been licking my wounds for a day or so now, after I realized that those two spectacular g/s, (whom I dote on and spare nothing as far as favors, gifts, love, etc.) actually gave me NOTHING for Christmas! Well, their names were on their mom's gift, but after I thought it over, it really sickened me. When I was small, I saved up my tiny allowances and so looked forward to picking out some little gift for my grandmothers. I was so excited for them to open it. But the world has changed. That drive isn't in my g/s. But I won't dwell on it, its another opportunity for me to jerk myself up and remind myself that the world turns on and I have to see things clearly, as as I wish or hope them to be. Thanks for such a sweet post. Follow your honest instincts and you'll be a gift to your g/c.