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[jadedgramma]

 Hi! I am new here; decided to do a search of "my adult children have disowned me" & clicked on this site. Wasn't even sure the search would show any results LOL but here I am & though I haven't read alot of posts yet, sounds like I'm not alone...because that is one of the worst things, feeling so alone. I just want to cry at the thought of writing here, but I cry all the time anyway!
   6 months ago, my oldest daughter told me "she is done with me for now" guess the for now should give me hope, but it doesn't. And in these past 6 months, I have left messages too numerous to count, begging,crying,yelling, over & over. Which has only made things worse. My son & daughter-in-law have now done the same. It's my mouth & having said too much over time. BUT, I cannot understand why my daughter couldn't have tried to talk to me about how she was feeling, and that it was leading to this. I am sooo depressed, but was before these incidents, guess that might be part of it too. But I don't know how to handle it. My grandkids are everything to me...and also I lost 3 other grandkids from my other daughter to the state & adoption...I tried to commit suicide when she lost the last two. And now, they've all been taken from me! How in the hell am I supposed to handle this?!

[luise.volta]

When things are that bad and you are that desperate, this site is not the place for you. You need professional help to get your perspective back and to again value your life. Please do that and then come back when you are beyond the level of danger you now describe. Sending love...