Grandma Baby Blues

[Nana]

When my first grandson was born I was in a major depression because I was not allowed to enjoy my grandson and this is what I wrote.  (I usually write poems or just my feelings when I am sad)
This happened almost 4 years ago. 

I share":


I dreamt to be a grandma but God had other plans for me. The baby was born but I don’t feel like one.
 I did not pretend to be the mother,  I did not think the babe was mine,  I wanted just to kiss him and hold him in my arms. 
 Despite all my efforts, despite my loving heart, I have to be contented to be so near and yet so far.
 When I m allowed to hold him when they decide I might', Oh God I feel so honored --they feel they're so nice .
I feel my dreams are not fulfilled, I feel I want to die, I was not expecting this deception and this is what I got.
 I shouldn’t call myself a grandma cause I am not considered one. I am just his daddy's mother but that doesn’t give me any rights.
Indeed I feel a lot of pain but time will do its work.   I was blessed with other things for everything I'm worth
I am sorry to annoy you but see what I've been through and even as a grandmother I got the baby blues.

[cremebrulee]

Nana, it's beautifully bittersweet...

Well done, enjoyed...writing is very good theropy....

Just so you know, we do have a poetry section in here....

Hugs and luv
Creme

[CarolN]

Nana~~Great poem~~Thanks for sharing it with us.

[Pen]

Nana, your love and pain show in every line. I hope things improve for you. {{{hugs}}}