I am so upset I didn't go to work. I never miss work, but my heart feels like it has been cut out. My daughter is in one of her bipolar rages again. She went to court today about her assaulting that girl in the courthouse, and was told she needs to get a lawyer as she is facing jail time, but probably just probation. She goes to trial April 18. But sadly here is my dilemma girls...she is now very paranoid, and has sent me 2 text messages and has screamed at me on the phone as well (she is clearly out of control), she is threatening to come and pick up my grandson and take him back again. He has been here 3 weeks and is quite frankly a real psychological mess. If she does this I fear he will totally just shut down all together. He is so terrified he sleeps in our room now and is doing better. My husband said he woke up at almost 1 am and just said "papa?", and my husband answered with just "yes?" and he laid back down to sleep...so very scared and insecure. Now if she shows up to rip him out of our home and school again...I fear the worst for him. She probably needs him to come back so she can have him babysit all day for the 3 year old so she can be in a drug induced haze! There isn't a thing I can do about it either. I am angry that she tells me when she gave him to me again that her reason was because her husband is mean to him and mistreats him and he isn't happy...yet she is willing to take him back there anyway??? Girls I feel defeated at this point. Nothing I have done has ultimately helped to assure his safety...I have had no help what so ever from child protective services. So here I will sit just waiting for her to show up and destroy this little boy again. Sorry I just had to vent...I am so so exhausted and angry right now. J
