I just wanted to add a comment here. I don't know if it will help anyone, but it helps me. We all come here with our life and free will. Nobody interfere's with our will to choose and make our own decisions - not even God (or what you think God is - the universe). When bad things happen to us, it is usually because of someone else's choices (that's free will), that we are so hurt. God doesn't put us in this horrible place of pain. But reaches out to us to comfort us. That reach can extend to every hiding place we find. We may "think" we are alone in our pain, but our hearts are always felt by the universe around us. This "consciousness" is what I call God.
You don't have to believe in God at your lowest point. Many of us are so hurt that we turn away from that God we once knew and throw blame. This is very normal and nothing to feel bad about. You are healing here and this is a part of that for some of us. But, whether you "believe" or not, your paralyzing pain is like a magnet in your heart and you send signals out to everything "out there," asking for rescue! Begging at times, AND there is always an answer, even if we can't see it with our eyes...
Luise made a statement in a previous post of hers that was perfect, explaining that from these darkest places, miracles are born. Something good is created from our darkest pain, usually in the form of a miracle - and by "miracle" I mean something you wouldn't possibly imagine in that dark place. I use the word "magnet" because that is the place of prayers. We all have that place inside ourselves that draws our "silent cries or prayers" to us. I am nobody special here, but one of you wise women who came in through my hurt one night. Every one of us has a powerful magnet. We may not notice the effects of that magnet right away, sometimes not at all. I believe we just overlook the signs around us sometimes.
When someone else's free will paralyzes us, it is from their personal choice (usually in selfish ways - not considering the consequences of their choice fully). Someone from the other side will be able to reach back and grab our hand, sometimes every so slightly. Be watchful. I know I sound like some "Jesus" freak and I'm not. I don't even attend a church anymore. I learned this stuff through experiences. It is my own truth and I believe the views I had of heaven one day when I died, were a gift that opened my eyes. There are angels around us that we don't see. You don't even have to believe they are there, but you always have an answer to pain and are loved enough to "matter!" We all are. I am less deserving than most. If I can have this experience, then there was a reason for it. If my experiences can help others open their hearts and see the miracles around them, then I was given a gift - no more special than everyone else's. The fact that this was posted, opened a door for other women here to talk about things they kept in a sacred part of their hearts! We should all be proud to share these experiences. No matter what we believe.
When we are at our lowest because of someone else's free will, I believe we are surrounded by angels - who are crying with us. They, with all their power could not change the mind of the person who hurt us. That would have been taking away that person's choice to go in their own direction in this life here. All they can do is reach back in the form of our own beliefs and if God isn't a part of our beliefs they still reach us, no matter what. And they are weeping with us at our sides through these dark moments.
They don't take back the gift of free choices, but they can reach back and love us, and try to let us know we are never alone.
